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Before our world became what it is, things used to be a little funny. We'd see something on TV, regurgitate it IRL. Now it's kind of hard to laugh because we 1) live in different corners of the internet 2) have very large frame of references 3) can never understand every frame of reference.

For real and out loud our entertainment is pr0p4gh4nja which is like also for real not funny T_T. Who knew Enders Game would become reality? A: all of us did.

get high michael, weed is legal now in like 42/50 states

GTA 5 offers us an almost terribly accurate map of Southern California AKA Los Santos, where a rich guy criminal, a lunatic from the desert, and a young black guy become unlikely friends and ??? Was there any winning? Not really. You play some bad guys who are just trying to get their own, fighting corrupt cops who are also trying to get their own within a system that fucks you (a bad guy) and reaps the benefits. It used to be funny. 

yay an on the rails torture scene ur forced 2 play that i 4got about

What else is there to say about this game? It's eerily familiar but not in the nostalgic way. It feels like reality, it looks like reality -what am I missing? If nostalgia is a longing for the past but memories degrade the more we remember, then who is to say we're all not maniacs about town with the choice to do "good" or "bad".

Can't help but imagine the permission Trevor Phillips gave to people across the world to cosplay as a sloppy gross piece of shit.

With Rockstar's impressive licensing of over music, accurate maps, recognizable actors, why shouldn't I believe this is reality? If it looks like it, might as well be it. Sure, this must be how things work in the world, it must be how things are. Real enough for my reality.

I can hear many assholes around the world going "but you don't get it, they're supposed to be assholes" and actually, yes I do get it, I just demand more of the people I decide to spend my time with (IRL and in game). The expansive world of GTA 5 online makes it so you never have to leave Los Santos and the millions of things you can do there -namely and the foreverly awaited GTA 6 (I'm assuming will be a reflection of the disparities between monied and poor + the movie Wild Things). The actor who played Lester shared some of this sentiment in a recent interview.

With so many songs, it was overwhelming to make a mix. Something that doesn't just sound like a million songs you heard over and over again in the span of this 20 something hour game. I'm always shocked to learn that no, it's not just the same 10 songs repeating, but over 400 tracks that just kind of blend together behind too much talking. There is in fact no samples from GTA 5 at all because 160k lines of dialogue is actually too much to sift through -surely there's a standout line? 13 years later, not really. Ain't nobody got the capacity for that and neither do Rockstars employees 💩.

dl GTA5 mix: 26GTNR05_69used2bfun

the people thought I'd sneak in there w cypress hill but hit 'em w conejo instead 😛

next mix I'll finish out this Rockstar lineup by jumping into LA Noire. I'm doing a lot more research for this mix because quite frankly it could be the biggest shit of them all?

check out last months Red Dead Redemption 2 mix

please lets b friends

I felt Red Dead Redemption 2 really signaled the end of AAA games. Coming out on the tails of Gamergate and #metoo, this playthrough hits the feels in a different way post whatever-the-fuck this is.

Just in time for the Fire Horse, my Dragon ass b slagging behind in this projected 4 out of 10 rating of a year for me. Playing catch up to and comparing myself to my peers in an obsessive manner is so classic me, really.

very clearly, me too Arthur

Maybe jaded because nothing is ever just, good, or bad. We seem to be stuck in the same sad story no matter how you play. A dream of openness, of nothing, is unobtainable because you'll always be confronted with an end. 

I can't speak to the experience of white men, but god knows I've played a bunch of them. I'm familiar with their experience of carrying the burden of provision, and when they struggle, making it known, while everyone listens with bated breath. The task of getting things done and keeping the peace.

What standard level r we at now?

horise b my friend

Would I be satisfied with a life if all I did was smoke pot and play video games, or is there something more I should be wanting? Should I have kids? Maybe I'll wing it, like my career, adaptable and willing to pivot. And maybe that's a luxury I'm afforded.

We should all always be striving to be a better person but you don't know that unless you've had your flaws pointed out. Existing, in fact, is not a flaw. Flaws of course are subjective.

It's an old timey type of photograph of video game characters its so weird

My cat, Chiba, passed away shortly after RDR2 came out and this new playlist and playthrough welcomes my new cat, Sheldy. Maybe as a soft way of introducing them and their different personalities, unknowingly connecting the missing parts in me.

His meow, sometimes still a mystery. He talks a lot, but what does he want.

I start a new part time job soon. The consistency is exciting and more than welcomed.

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This episode of GTNR has been titled a few different ways, but you get the idea.

The mix includes some country, a lil dance. Songs and feelings recorded pre-invasion minnesota '26

dat lost wages feelin!

Where is the money? Where does it go?

frisky ding0 > archer

Visited family in lost wages over the holiday. The city only offers hints of the late 90's family incorporated style I grew up with. A failure to attract that market resulted in its now dusty glamor hidden behind barriers and infrastructure. Covered up skeletons of non sensical forms. Everywhere a reminder that you should be inside. 

sphere pales in comparison to this display at the mgm really

In one of many of the rooms in the in the desert city my family gathered and ate food. We watched a magic show that made me feel as excited as when I did in 1997 watching Michael Flatley grace the stage in Lord of the Dance -also in Las Vegas. I look forward to funny traditions of going to shows, my dad sometimes taking jokes to far, and going off to "sneak" a cigarette in the casino.

me on the plane reading this like "uhm I will take just a soda water and a cookie please" *pushes up glasses*

No specific theme for this GTNR episode, just recalling feelings and comprehending new ones in this familiar but changing desert city. I re-read this book on the flight to and kept this in mind as I made the mix and took photos. Am I welcome? Is anyone? Should they be? There is nothing quite like the way the sun grabs you, a reminder that it desires a soft flesh.

join me in dat lost wages feelin
og recorded Nov-Dec 25

g33k t4lk n3rd r0ck · Dat Lost Wages Feelin'

dl mp3 here!

Who Is The REal Girl

O brother how I hate this timeline sometimes.

No, Okabe Rintaro, can you see us?

This week we're playing Steins;Gate. A visual novel exemplary of the genre. A game I didn't even know I was playing until the end of my first playthrough. Shitty timelines? Parallel universes? This game reflects the dystopic time warp we've found ourselves in.

One that reflects television that reflects life that is also a game but based off a book written by the director of...

Clever gameplay disguised as text message responses. So innocuous it's genius.

This game gets dark asf when you start questioning what would happen if you could change fate. The layers of identity and parallels of life got us all fucked up tbh. And for some reason I hate myself in every universe, incredible.

w h o i s s h e

The mix includes songs dedicated to the girls in this slice of life who were just trying to ask those what if questions. Making this mix coincided with my sisters birthday so I threw a couple songs her way too. Enjoy.

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an unwavering depression

       

                                                                                        jame jame help me jame

Ah, and here we are again at my least favorite season, Fall. While so beloved by my fellow goth nerds, my depression gets to me this time of year, seeing the trees shed their life and the wind. Absolutely dislike the wind.

Wind aside, this GTNR episode was inspired by the Silent Hill series. Recorded after playing through the Silent Hill 2 remake this summer I am proud to report that I have completed a scary game. Not without the help of my partner, of course, but games are more fun that way. 

hello it me crispy jame!!

My mom, who happens to be in the process of moving closer to me this week, played a bit of the first game with me as a teenager. She stopped shortly after entering several areas with dirty bathrooms, saying it was too gross, and I was too scared to carry on without her. Somewhere in there an answer to how we find ourselves here today.

wow finally a break 2 watch tv!! i am jame!!!

At this age I am feeling both parts mother and child. A Silent Hill-esque pubescent hell itself and adult depression. A sadness that we romantacise until we can't take it anymore and we disappear.

enjoy the cassette mix of sounds from some Silent Hills, and other songs that hit

just pre-Silent Hill F coming out. don't hate, that game was just fine.

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a new romance

fla-boe-be glitched out on this layer merge

I feel stupid trying to write on this platform because it feels foreign to me and nothing works like I expect it to. Losers across the nation feel this same sentiment.

But here we are, the first mix of g33k t4lk n3rd r0ck 2.0 sampling some of my favorite otome games as of late. If unfamiliar with this genre, you play as a 2D girlfriend confronted by a group of possible suitors and through a series of story choices learn more about yourself, and find love in the process.

dis my no1 husband0 in Cupid Parasite

Say what you will about these games, they are wholesomely SPICY. Knowing you made someone happy is a great feeling, 2D or not. It's satisfying to have answers provided for you and all the time to think it over -up to and including re-do's. 

I don't drink anymore or have co-workers, so Sympathy Kiss hit on a different level

I suppose what makes me cry most is not just the heightened romance (complete with over the top music and sometimes sparkles) is how much the character you end up with becomes a reflection of yourself and the choices you've made. Right. I was not ready for that sentiment when I picked up games for the first time since pre-pandemic.

who can forget sally del testa from despera drops

I've spent the last few years learning more about myself. Namely that I'm sensitive, and not like just emotionally, but like to noises, fragrances, and the outside. I just think I'm all around soft and it turns out I've always been this way. And so maybe I embrace it now and be open to the parts of me these otome games reflect.

enjoy the cassette mix of otome games, mistakes, and songs that hit on May 2025

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we're going back in time

I suppose we start somewhere. Former long time online diarist, jumping back in some 10 odd years later. I saw @kingropstyle come out with a blogger, and I followed suit.

G33k t4lk n3rd r0ck (GTNR) was my college radio show on KSSU.com. Then, also on a small AM frequency, I followed in my sisters footsteps and became a DJ. Sandwiched in between Kevin Seconds and Dub V, I was the all over the place nrrd grrl who couldn't control the volume. Not quite turntabalist or mix master, I gave reviews of video games in between chiptune tracks and internet sound bytes in a proto-podcast radio show. I, like every other millennial, look back at the early days of the internet with a deep fondness.

GTNR flyer circa 2007

Now a few years outside of my MFA (thank you thank you now what), I looked back at my relationship to music -something I gave up for my artistic practice, trying to ham-jam the two forms together. Naturally I got frustrated at 1) sucking at music 2) making art that sucks as a result of the former. Enough people building "walls of sound" could help me explore this subject, but they're not who I'm trying to reach. I just want the fun part of making music, without having to reinvent the wheel. Everything has been made anyway, my way of looking at something isn't unique, I just had to find who was already there.

I consume the same amount of media now as I did back then. Franchises and IP's I adored so much have brought on a sense of ennui I haven't felt in a long time... I replaced repeat episodes with news in between sponsored ads. My once active digital social life has become as limp as the penises HIMS promises to fix.

Trina Fernandez @ 2008

A private dance party of one, a song that ends abruptly because of a surprise phone call. 30 minutes of un-advertised, but not interrupted space. The set takes a few days to casually record, here and there after work is done for the day. A small joyful routine that stops me from killing myself. A mix of video game sounds and layer of reference from personal to dumb. A half-hour sorry. A percussive reminder that we are human.

I don't go out like I used to, I don't think anybody does since the pandemic. Maybe it's a side effect of getting older and smoking too much pot alone. But *takes a fat rip* I'm just trying to shop around for the meaning of it all, you know?